Question?

Should I sit and watch how happy you are now that your with them? As you were just an hour ago with me all alone I quietly sat in the saddest of all modes I've ever undergone. Now that you have gotten me to fall in love with you and all your imperfections it seems as though you forgot you were in love with me. Have you forgotten the young innocent girl who's virginity you recieved almost four years ago. She's given you the most important years of her life from the beggining of her teen years through the process she's undergoing now of becoming a woman. You've made me feel that I need you and then when I realize I wished I had you in a certain moment you weren't there.So why is there so much happiness while others are around? Why pretend we're happy when the only time I've ever seen you smile is with them? I wonder is it that you were never really in love to begin with? Were you just scared of being alone, and why me of all the girls who still wished you were theirs? I've missed your real smile and luaghter. I've been withholding pain inside wishing that for once in all these years , your smile,  who can illuminate the whole room was because of me! And as these tears run down my face, and over my lips, as to where I can taste how sour they are I remember how much I used to smile with you but I can't remember your smile. Im thinking back that the only times we've laughed together , were times we were just playing around as teenagers.

I can honestly say I LOVE YOU AND IM IN LOVE WITH YOU!!! But are you still inlove with me?

Question is it because of the change my body took, or the fact Im now standing tall to defend myself all over again? I can sit all day and try to find an excuse but it's up to you to tell me teh honest truth!
What should I do continue wondering why or should I just act as if I don't realize it?
So Question, Do I make you happy or am I just wasting my time because whatever it is, it will never be uncovered.

Reality Check (TEENS)

Hey there I was wondering...
When was the last time you gave your self a reality check?

Think when was the last time you knew you weren't being yourself. Many of us just worry about being cool I guess people hit their tens and forget who we are.
I always and forever will be me! If you know me, you know I like laughing and hanging out but I also love me some peace. So how about you stop acting like a big shot who thinks their shit don't stink and remember the people around you will not always be there. Or you Mrs.My toto is made of gold, get off that cloud what you got so does every other girl in this world. Maybe you have the fancy name brand clothes and the gold but baby girl what you got anyone has under them clothes so stop throwing it around like its a football this isn't a hot potato game and take care of yourself.

 Watch what you and who you do it with!!! I'm so tired of hearing about the girl who gave it up and got left or the guy who took it and laughed. I just think maybe if you realized wait this isn't me I wasn't raised to give it up that easy. Maybe you've been through shit but your not the only one. As many people know many females and males get stds and pregnant and fucked over but at the end they somehow they overcome. So why not stop the mess now and realize what can come of what your about to commit to.

GIVE YOURSELF A REALITY CHECK!!!

When to let go of love?

To a child parents are together forever and when your in love you never imagine what it would be like to be with out that special person. But.. What happens when you still love someone but they just love you as family not as the person they want to spend the rest of their with? You know when the candle burns out and so does the string where can the fire rekindle? There is a time where we have to just let go and when the one we love wants to leave we need to just let go! Many people ask themselves why but why should we be the ones to ask why? How about just saying if you feel as though you want to leave and don't want to try to work things out then okay! Just know Im going to be the one who was always at your side through thick and thin, I'll be the one who you'll regret to have left.